Life has looked very promising lately. And I've started to try to grab hold of that promise, making a stand for the things I want, standing firm and unwavering.
But promising is still mostly all it is.
I have many life changes that I've been anticipating for one reason or another. 2014 will be an incredibly crucial year for me; however, I can't help but feel like I'm waiting in line for an amazing ride. I can see it, but the time before getting on the ride is just purgatory.
Graduate school decisions and applications (I need to start preparing for this now though, so it really shouldn't count).
Various friends moving to and from Lexington.
My anti-anxiety medication hasn't started to work yet, leaving me nervous about its primary and side effects (one of which may be total exhaustion, but I'm not positive on this)
Trying new things and meeting new people.
The self improvement I'm staring at before I'll be ready to fall in love.
Games I'm actually excited about designing.
Little budding flowers of confidence popping out of the soil fertilized five months ago.
One of the lessons I ultimately must learn here is the importance of accepting the here and now and making the most out of that time, so I realize that this "waiting" for life period is at odds with what life really is. Perhaps this is the process through which my mind shifts from a global perspective to an individual perspective.
So many unanswerable questions... But at least I probably have the time and energy to dedicate towards solving these curiosities.
Next week, I'll wander my ass back towards controversial opinions- promise!
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Wade
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